Its my birthday
Hurrah
One years old
Mom got me this tie
For my present
Isn't it adorable?
I cry if I want to
After it is my birthday
I was not even allowed
To say high
To those cutes in the window
At the Cafe cats
What is the point
Of showing me what's
On the other side?
To many problems
Too many suggestions
Not enough control
I could have sworn
I walked into a war zone
There was that strange
Trolley station
With nothing but homeless
The only customers
Were Jack and myself
I had to wait so long
To get around the corner
Just one stop
And people standing
On the streets
As if they were rehearsing
Then the situation
With the past favorite breakfast place
No more favorite
Couldnt even find
Cafe cats
A chabot
Was there instead
Ah, after walking
Up and down
It was kitty corner
Moved to a new location
And old apartment
Weird remembering
Being a toddler
Inside staring out
While I was watching
The cat population inside
Only had a glimpse
Of the Chinese new year
My old neighborhood
And everyone acts as if
I am a strnager
An unwanted one at that
I could not even eat
My face froze
I was attempting
To shove food inside
When I realized
That the nerve damage
Was worse
Frozen muscles
Mini stroke?
Great just another thing
To worry about
My old family home
Is now a dog park.
I wonder if they found
The body buried underneath?
All old homesteads
Have burials of the first
Inhabitants in California
No wonders
Nothing is going right
All those old memories
Making me cry
At the oddest moments
And then there are those kids
My family had extras
Until Jimmy made us
His home for good.
Even my own siblings
Would whether play
The game of taking me out
Just so someone else
Can show up instead
Why provide them
With a chance
Unless that is all they had
Growing up is strangers
Being told it was them
Or no mom
My mother was taken hostage
By people way back
Even had this girl
Kim Harrison
Tall african girl
With a white mother
Whose photo used to be up
At the Post office
For robbing banks
When she attended Berkley
Kim would not leave us alone
She even introduced herself
As family!
When one is native american
And european
With no real issues towards
Slavery or racism
It is an odd thing
To have someone like her
Not get to make us uncomfortable.
Then she went off and joined
The Muslim movement
Just when those guys
Were arriving to learn to fly
In my hometown
Her look alike daughter
A by product
Is called Najma
Wont stop making me angry
Thinking of the 9/11
All those people
Her father killed
And sitting there in front of me
No one will listen
Why else was so left behind
When Kim had to move
To Colorado with all the other
Fleeing Californians
Only to come back
With a white guy
It is like watching
Zelensky making fools
Of everyone
Handing them flowers
And walking down the street
He has killed all those children
Because he wont allow
A fellow group
To have their independence
I am afraid even Trudeau
Was one of those today
Two years anniversary
On my sisters birthday
We always celebrate it
For her even though she is dead
Just so it is a reminder
Of a lost child.
Remember, remember
Cry for me
Valencia has gone up
In flames
As has a block in china.
All those people
Out of a home
Because someone
Wants to smoke in bed.
My face feels weird
Poor rich millionares
The Russians always hide it
But they are for the most part
Filthy rich
At least the ones we hear about
Not like in the old days
Those poets
Would write stories
To break our heart
Only to come to America
And die happy rich guys.
That mother is most likely
Not the real one
Old Soviet habits
Steal a child
And raise it yourself
Then your will be blessed
Maybe she not even recall
The day a lost boy
Wondered into view
Wanting to know why
His family were not here
Or there
Wonder if uncle John
Ever forgave me
For that thing
I don't know about
Turns out there were
Alot of lost souls
In my childhood
Besides my dead sister
Only five years old
When her life was snuffed out
Her is another child
So, reminiscence
Of those blond Scandinavians
Afraid to say they were
Russians not Germans
Macarthism
Those horrible days
Of being black listed
Now I am being given
That rude shove
Just because my cat
Is a Russian Blue
Actually, with his gold eyes
He is probably a
Chanteuse, French!
I wont be getting close
To Paris this summer
All the reservations
Are already gone
And I still have not gotten rid
Of my tumors
Multiple ones
Protruding as if I was pregnant
And over 55
Poor mother
Who had to be given
The lifeless body of her son
Whether or not it is hers
She raised him
While the wife just wants
What has the world come to
The Palm trees
Have been blown over
By the storms
A hundred years old
Brought to California
For postcard realestate
Come to sunny california
Where there is a pool in every yard
And Palm trees
Really they are not native
Which is why they don't withstand
Everyone is crying for them
While I see another two old houses
Have been torn down
Up on old Bankers hill
Hundred years old
And part of the history
Of this town but they dont care
Cry for the Palm trees
But not the houses
Where families
Lived and breathed
Fought and died.
Good for nothing
While my old downtown
Is a ghost town
Except where they put up
Tall hotels
On top of harbor sand
Just like San Francisco
Everyone moved away from
The safe streets
Because of fire
And found themselves
In the dark
When the big earthquake hit
These people wont even make it out
They will probably all die
In those glass structures
Progress and modernization.
I will cry if I want to
My parents suffered
The consequences of being the wrong race
And their parents the wrong immigrant group
Little brothers and cousins
All gone and not coming back.
The Torsos should look at the headlines.....
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