I was just complaining
Where are you now?
I know you were often
In the hospital waiting room
But not the last time
I needed you to be here
Really, all those childhood
Tragedies
Then adulthood
I have was the one
Who ran around
Taking care of others
When Jimmy locked
Out of the house
In the snow
Great grandma Harriet
Harry the first one
In DC to have an electric wheelchair
Who was actually stopped
By the police and asked
For her drivers license
Which she had along
With a license plate
For her motorized vehicle
Now adays
They have so many
Scooters and others
No one knows how to operate
There I was trying to hug her
To keep her from freezing
Along came my real brother
He said he was shoved out
Of the upstairs
He managed to get down
By way of tree.
Off I ran for a phone
While he did jumping jacks
When we got back
The Police and I
She was sitting there
Frozen solid
And the little one
Collapsed from exhaustion
They entered the place
Scared off the intruder
Called child social services
Nothing they could do
For the old lady
Mother got back
In time to find
Jimmy had put her
In the back of the car
They picked me up
At hospital for frost bite
And drove to Utah
She was LDS
And had to be buried in Utah
We never did make it
For years I would be there
All alone watching him
Drive by with the skeleton
Just sitting in the back seat
Never could get him on it.
Which is why I ask
Where are you?
I found the other one
Sitting in the sun
In Ensenada
Also in her ninties
Inga had lived a long time
Too long according to Jimmy
Who was attempting to say
He was her son
I was listed as the heir
To both places
Since my mother
Already had brain cancer
My grandparents
Would not be required
To do anything more than
Make sure we did not loose
Our inherited property
On both sides of the US
Inga had been poisoned
She did not make it
Back to Utah either
Where her LDS husband
Lays buried
We are not the Mormon
Side of the family
We are the ones to care
For the rest while they have
Thier Zion on earth.
Jimmy could not handle it
He still had to deal
With the grandparents
His family were not sure
Who we were but that
He was being committed
To yet one more
Mental hospital
And perhaps for life
This time because
He got caught
Trying to make plans
To blow up the White House.
Grandma Hazel was found
By myself at the bottom
Of the stairs of an apartment
Instead of all the fancy homes
As a Radio Star Reporter
Should have had access
I was just sixteen
And had to answer those questions
That no adult can respond
They might even attempted
To have me prosecuted
Instead old Alona came
And stoled the clothes
Off of my grandmother
Three different outfits
She was wearing
When the polcie finally arrestesd her
She is one of those girls
Who always wants what
Someone else has
It is so funny
She says as I walk past
She was inssteing
The Johnstons
Were not good enough for her
She is still stealing whatever
She can including my name.
I have five fine culinary certificates
I know how to skin an Alona
She always threatened
To skin my cat
Najma the siamese
Who was on the
I Spy series
As the kitten
Of an Empress
May as well call me
An Empress
Honey
Because I am not going
To allow Alona
That privilege!
I came home from
A long day
Preparing food
In front of a camera
Sweating it out
Worse than a real kitchen
Cant make a mistake
In front of those live watchers
While I climbed the stairs
With the fresh food
To cook for my grandpa
Who had rescued me
From his own daughter
I was told by Mary
That something was wrong
People had been kncocking
On the door all day
They had even gone inside
And she knew I did not want
That old man disturbed
He was not going to be disturbed
Anymore
He sat at my kitchen table
With a bullet in his head
He had been the paratrooper
Who landed on the wrong side
Ran the wrong way
And in order to keep
From becoming a POW
In a German camp
Went to live with the allies
Known as Russians
His mother in law
Had left St Petersburg
Just before the revolt
He had made it sure
That his wife did not go to
Leningrad
There he was learning
The language and the ways
To survive from the opposition.
Came home to an angry wife
Lost her and his way of life
Spent alot of time on boats
Yet he began to find himself
Standing in a grocery store
Without a wallet
Trying to figure out
How to pay for the groceries
Which is why he was living with me.
He was a war hero
Jack not Jimmy
Killed by jimmy
To leave me a message
The crazy kid
Was dangerous after all.
And where we you?
Where are you know?
Jimmy has done it again
Leaving me messages
Destroying the lives of others
He has been tearing down historic houses
Allowing the wrong ones
To have the things set aside
For me when it was time
Thirty nine and size zero
She was not supposed to live
So long with her brain
Eighty percent gone
Left with a four year old
That no one else noticed
What was I to do?
I even found myself
One day not in Kansas
Always moving towards
The diplomacy
I ended up being written in
On a few political dramas
This one was not for the Mayor
Come on!
Had a heart attack
When I realized I was running
For President
And not the United States
I am American
But lived elsewhere
Really!
Where were you that day
When I needed to hold you hand?
Well, I have been watching
The dead bodies again
All over the place
Lying on the streets
Under the trolley I was on
And quietly taken out
Of the residence I live.
Most of them were either
COVD19 or pneumonia
I know there was at least one
Of those who gave me something.
There was a mini epidemic
A decade ago
When I left town
Attempting to reside
In one of my inherited homes
In Washington
But was escorted outside
I am not sure if it is still standing.
There it is on my lab results
Going over my medical records
To see where the doctor has gone wrong
Still have those tumors in my uterus
And yes my thyroid is none functioning
Cant explain my fatigue
Must have Lupus or something
Are you ready?
I want dozens of roses
From you and a flourless chocolate cake
Hepatis A A/B
Reactive!
How did the doctor miss it?
Because the nurses have been
Prescribing diabetic medicines
Instead of seeing there is a reason
I who don't eat sugar
Have an abnormal lab result
Should be in a coma
Instead I have been laying
Down too much
Cant get my chores done
Nor do i want to eat
Just lay down
Not even sleep.
So terribly exhausted
Good thing
You were not here
Or you might have caught it
As well.
Thank goodness
You have been preoccupied
Nonreactive means negative
This is a positive result
I either have had it already
Or have it now.
My liver it at risk.
I have been not drinking
Even my white wine.
Where were you
The day I caught this disease
So help me god
If jimmy starts in on me
About my dead sister
Being alive
So many of those girls
Don't know anything
Except what they steal
Even Martha Raddatz
Is sitting there explaining to me
She does not understand
She does not look like me
Nor does Julia Roberts!
All those funerals I missed
Because I had a feeling
Not to attend
While I felt so ill inside
Hepatitis is very not nice
I am a survivor
But that is not going
To get you off the hook.
I want to know when you
Are not going to be
Somewhere else
But sitting next to me....
Happy Winter Solstice!
The Icelandic Volcano erupted
In celebration of Nature
While everyone else
Has their winter holiday
I still listen to the ancient ones
While I consider ways
Of having Jimmy eliminated
As is fair of his behavior
Where are you?
I am here waiting
For you honey
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