Really darlings...

What does one expect?

When one lives a life

Of dreams without end?

There are those

Who strive to do the right thing

And are punished  for it

Then there are those

Who do everything wrong

And then celebrated

My mothers brain cancer

Diagnosis was made public

A long time before 

She passed away

With eighty percent

Of her brains gone

And with no one 

To help her

Only to sit there

And encourage her

To give everything away

The christian way of thinking

That if you have nothing

When you die 

God will have to accept you

But there is that scripture

About burrying ones talents

Living the life of a pauper

Was never encouraged

Nor was berating somone

For having nothing

After a life time of work

Ony to have it removed

Your money that is

As well as resepctablity

I cant even get my 

Gynecologist

Who acknowledges 

I have benign tumors

To do surgery

She canceled out

Last summer

What is the end result?

I have lost all abillity

To eat in public

And I am going 

Without food

Dieting strictly

No sugar or gluten

Exercising causes

Me great pain

And exhaustion

My asthma is labored

But the gym i go to

Isn't able to provide me

With basic professionalism

I have degeneration of my spinal cord

After complaining for years

About the increased pain

And lack of mobility

Instead the nurses want

To prevent me from having

Either pain medicine

Or thyroid medicine

For my other 

Diagnosed tumor

My thyroid went into

Overdrive 

Causing me to become 

To skinny

Where upon the social services

Took it upon themselves

To have me court ordered

To eat so much every day

All over a concerned citizen

Who would not stop calling

And calling

And calling

Calling every hour or so

Now after months

Of careful eating

And three times a week

The required twenty minutes

Plus, I have nothing to show

For it except

Another needle mark

In my scalp 

Just behind my ear.

Who does these things

To people?

Oh by the way

Jimmy 
I understand 

That will of Graces

Administered by 

Her best friend

Lillian Graf Willis

Has been found

All those jewels

That I was left

Have been distributed

By yourself though out

The entire San Diego area

Where Grace herself 

Once lived and breathed

Including Lauras

Tiffany ring

From her Cambridge days

While your wife

Still wears my grandmothers

Fur coat as if a pauper

Could be giving anything

Just for wearing 

Somone elses clothes

I have to contend

With seeing my own

Clothes being worn

By other women

In the same building

Where I reside

I had a flood

Yesterday

A river ran through

My room

Had to pick up 

Everything and empty

My closest

Who walks into

Someone elses closet

And claims their things?

Jimmy

That is all it is about

Isn't it 

Your Captain Kangaroo days

When your good old dad

Would sit there knowing

That all those goodies

Would go to you

As soon as the camera

Stopped rolling...

I better not have lost

My shirt at any time

During your demanding

To be my parent

My parents are both dead

One from cancer

And one from a broken spirit

Your Kate has something

For you to hear

Your John and her

Took over the management

Of properties they don't 

Have a right to step inside

What is this commodities

Nonsense ?

Juan said he was running

An electric bicycle taxi service

Why is he and your mechanic

Other son listed on a Stocks

Company?

Not still going around

Convincing people

You are related to Brook Shields?

Anyways my thyroid

Burnt out and there is nothing

I can do about it

Without a proper doctor

I was promised by the third one

I sought last year

He would care for my needs

He did set up referrals

And then left as the other one

Dr Hazelbaker

Better have a real doctors license

He also told me he was going

To prescribe me medicine

Time after time

Until I finally got

That his nursese

Were never going to do it

And then little Elizabeth

Got fired over the mail thing

Showed up as a nurse

Without any certification

Now I am being pursued

Over your diabetes

For the last time

I will not have 

My mother demand

That I have diabetes

Just because of you

And Candace not passing

The first grade nor the sixth

I want Candy dead

She deserves cancer

And you better be sure

Whom you are dealing

Why does both

Charles and Kate

Have cancer diagnosis?

That is your line

You used to keep rats

In your room

Ones you would take

From their cages

In those University doctors colleges

Where they give them cancer 

Through injections

All those needle marks

Cant abide authority

What happened

Did Kate get too much

Of the public eye?

While Charles was

Supposed to just hand over

His job to you

Isnt that right?

Dreaming is not 

What you do 
You nor Candy

Both of you have

Lifetime memberships

In the mental wards

By court laws

Why are those not 

Being applied ?

What have you done

This time?

I have a diagnosis

Of at least six tumors

Which I am told

Are not cancerous

I had Hepatitis. 

Last year without it being treated

But more needle marks

I have been to ill

To fend for myself

Meanwhile I keep

Hearing Candys voice

And not in my head

In my apartment complex

What are you planning?

Wills are meant to be enforced

Grace had you promise

Those jewels and yet you wont

Even give me the family photos

Nor am I getting tired

Of seeing one more vehicle

Stolen by your son

While my grandmothers 

Furs go walking around

On other people

Not that I would have

Any where to wear them

Since I was abandoned

By the same people

Who promised themselves

Anyways I don't appear

To have cancer

Maybe Lupos

Not that you worry

When you get tired

You just take a pillow

Into your hands...

Starving is not hilarious

Especially when your 

Wife nurse wants to clap

Her hand like she is a seal

In a circus act

By the way

The Vargas circus

Is in town

Is your friend Elizabeth

Going to come visit 

Her father while he is working?

Oh and another thing

There is going to be

A lunar eclipse

Sunday night

Not that we will

Have a chance

With this thunderous storm 

Wonder where my uncles have gone?