The year I missed

 

1977

Was the year 

That Jimmy 

Was put into a mental hospital

Because of his craziness

And the suspicion

That he was a killer

A belief many experts

Still have about him

One reason I cant

Do anything at all

Without him knowing

Including doing 

The simple thing

Of following the example

Of another middle age

Woman of buying 

A ticker out of a machine

In the lobby 

Of my local grocery store

It was not the winning ticket

And I could hardly figure out

How to use the machine

Because there was 

This flurry of activity

Directly behind me

It is a good thing

I did not do my own pick

But let the machine do it for me

I know not to let 

A cashier

Give me the ticket

Because i was hacked

And it will come out

Well Jimmified

And again I am being

Given the impression

That apparently

He also got hold

Of my numbers

And caused me not

To win

Talk about being

Schizophrenic

The suggestion

That even if I walk

Behind someone 

Using one of those things

I never look at

I am still going

To have to contend

With the idea

That god is watching me

And denying me

The right to anything at all

And his name is Jimmy

Not Jehovah

Jehovah would never

Blame me for not 

Taking a Superbowl bet

Or make a deal 

With someone

If they go without

Eating they will

Be allowed to accept

The next present

That comes along

Instead I am 

Getting that expression

On peoples faces

Where or what?

I am telling you

They keep drugging me

These scam artists

Have it all worked out

Ahead of time.

My father was a civil engineer

Did I mention that before?

Once we went to 

The Amazon

His kids were immediately

Abducted 

The very reason 

We were so far from home

And the girl had to go

Through all sorts of things

Before being released

It was the son

Who sat  there wanting

To be made into a god

Or something

All those stories

Of Betty A

And Suzie P

That still cause

Janet to believe

She can kill anyone

And get away with it.

Bless the next guy

Who strays into

Those woods.

Because they told

Us we would not 

Be allowed to go home

The next time...

Wish it was Brent

Who was down there

Sitting in a fire clearing

Oh that's right

He is KKK

And knows everything

Before it happens.

Which brings me to 

The year I lost

All because Jimmy

Was not allowed 

To be with me

But had to learn

To behave inside

An institution

Or he would not 

Be given the right

To walk around

As a free man

He enjoys walking

As if he is in a movie

With his ugly face

And smelly body

Just because it is 

Not supposed to be 

Known to him

Where and when

I am out and about

This year someone

Blew it out

Of proportions

And we all had to go

Back to the normal

That jimmy imagined

Where he got to tell

My mom and dad

What to do

While my younger brothers

Went to live with people

Who being paid

To keep them from

Guessing they were not wanted

Just to get them out of the way

While I had to sit there

In a drugged condition

One more time

All I did was get

Into one of those 

Seventies things

A spelling bee

That landed me in Siberia

A cake walk

Where all the other girls

Ran away leaving me standing

On the only winning square

I got the strawberry cake

So I could eat the strawberries

Since i would not be eating

The cake after I gave it

To my mother

Since she was only going

To give it away

She always gives

My stuff away

Even now from the grave

I can still feel her....

I ended up in a coma

After that school event

But back to my story

I was given the task

Of completing a story

About Francis Scott Key

Had I heard of him?

He wrote the Star spangled banner

Didn't he?

Oh can you see...

I had to sing it

Several times

That year

All because my family

Had served in every war

Including the War of 1812

But did not celebrate

Christmas

The Puritans had banned it

The Christmas event.

That other enjoy.

Making others miserable

Anyways I won my little

Story about his life

Presented to some historical

Place when I was still small

And a scholarship of some sort

Which my mother was not going

To allow me to enjoy

Oh, and I got to meet

Nancy Pelosi

Local San Franciscans

She was married to man

From the West Coast

But her family

Were from the East coast

Just like ours

In fact she was from

Baltimore Maryland

Correct me

But wasn't there an event

Of war things going off

On her trip to 

Tawain from China?

Did she also stop

In Singapore?

It is an island nation

Of its own independence

We associate it with

China like Hong Kong

But really it is

South East Asia

Malaysia

Maybe we should

Annex it 

Like the Philippines

And Costa Rica!

Anyways I was given

All this stuff I had to do

About this guy

And then they built a bridge

In his hometown

I missed the opening of the event

Three days later

I was sitting in a vehicle

With my father driving

And my brothers on each side

My sister now dead 

And a guest in the front seat

Which was not Jimmy

I recall it vividly

That day I was punished

For all the good work 

I had done

And hearing my father

Tell his guest

That this bridge

Was well built

He knew those things

His specialty 

Was the fails

He could predict

What kinds of designs

Would fail

More valuable 

Than what kind of things

Would stand up to time

He lost his job

After that and never returned

To his projects

Of bridges and overpasses

As well as architecture

He was challenged

By Jimmy about it

Not being able to be brought down

He asked what about a big ship?

The Titanic is small in comparison

To the size of that Singaporean vessel

It is not that Jimmy

Was predicting but wanting to know

What he had to do to destroy

Such as having something

Having its steering go out

Or the nuts and bolts

That hold something

Fail to hold

He had all sorts

Of ideas as to 

Just cause problems

For us on our trips

It is not that his mother

Wasa not rich enough

To fly first class

And take him 

All around the world

Even to meet the Pope

What if, what if?

It was driving

My father mad

Thinking of all

Those places he had worked

On becoming jimmies

Playground

Candy was known

To go into his offices

Even the ones with 

Military clearance

And mess up his papers

She was also the culprit

Who was breaking his glasses

Attempting to make him 

Go blind

Which is what he did

I spent my childhool

Walking behind my hero

Who could build anything

And then as a teenager

With his hand on my elbow

He could still design

Things in his head

But without a modern computer

To read his thoughts

Or understand his lingo

He was blind 

And without a rudder

I was sad for us

It was not his fault

And he could have had

A nice life 

If only people would

Not stop showing up

Such as Gary Calvi

Falsely claiming

It does not really matter

Yesterday

Was the exact date

Not March 23

But March 26

The day we crossed over

For the first time

This great achievement

Amazing things

Is that no one suspects

Jimmy had anything 

To do with it

Nor that it was 

A terrorist action.

Just a mistake

Of a ship suddenly

Catching on fire

Another jimmy thing to do

That and tipping

Over canoes...

No one cares

What jimmy does anymore

Even his pick

His choice

Kate Middleton

Has cancer

He told everyone

They would get to be

The Princess 

If they did what he 

Told them to do

Instead there are 

A bunch of girls

Such as Gail Gadot

Who want to yell at you

And stick your head

Well it is really

Too much to describe

47 years ago...

What did you and I

Do wrong Joe?

How did this happen

Another catastrophe

Another jimmy accident

The bridge is gone

London bridge is falling down...

I have been hearing that in my dreams

As I am trying to heal

From all the stuff

Jimmy did to me since 

My own mothers death

I get strange things

Such as silly rhymes

Jimmy also threatened

To blow up Big Ben

And cause that bridge

To fall down

Whosh!

One tap from a ship

Along one anchor point

And the whole thing

Collapsed!

Just like that...

Jimmy where are 

You hiding?

How did you do it?

11

My only winning number

And I still need 

The megapixel

Just to get 4 dollars.

I did not win

The 1.1 billion

Not that i was counting on it

But had to hear about it

When I got back

From some crying mass

Of blubber

The same woman

Who insisted on stealing

My boxes of special

Gluten free food

Provided by the Celiac association

At their cost

Was sitting there 

With the new case workers

Wanting them to do something

She can spit out two dollars

I know because everyone

Around here buy cigarettes

What else of mine 

Do they want?

It was just a thing

Not even a belief

I may as well 

Buy one of those things

Just to see what happens

My neighbors got really quiet

Last night and I felt watched

6

People went into the water

All of them 

Immigrants 

Who are the only ones

Who will do the dirty work

Of filling pot holes

On a bridge

In the middle of the night

What are their families

Now to do?

Jimmy?

Did you do it?

Please, please

Tell me...

Life is different

For others 

Some of us live

With a mentally ill

Person in our family

And have no ability

To get away from their problems

And jimmy is not even related

To me our mine

Lady of the water

Needs to help 

Those searchers....