There always those days
When you just don't feel things
Are quite right in the universe
Than there is the day one
Finds out that your boyfriend.
Wants to eat you!
I come from a modest set
Of grandparents some of whom
Were war heroes and others
Could have done more than
Take care of family instead
The first time I saw this kid
Was in the arms of a prostitute
She was a Reno fish stocking
Girl who got caught by the wrong guy
Ended up pregnant and escaped the obvious
Abortion by running into a crowd of
Cattlemen association conventioneers
They serve a great steak in Reno
It brings in a lot of innocent ones
Who believe that except for a few carts
There are no other places to eat
But inside the casinos.
My family were those who
Did know how to play cards
But those gambling places
Were not their style
Nor was the girl squeezing herself
Into the car as it drove down the street
They took to a hospiatl where someone
Was dumb enough to show up
And ask her to marry him
Some guys just want an offspring
Not caring where it comes from
And so one summer day she arrived.
At our coastal ranch where we actually worked
With a red-haired baby and a sad tale
My family had connections to the old world
She was not going to fit in nor was she welcomed
She ran off and joined a cult for a while
The Charles Mansion guru years
She got a trip to India
While the brat was taken care of
By grandma, if asked the girl
Was inside sacrificing her youth
When in fact for two years
She ran around the world
Then she had to come home
To face the music
A quick spanking awaited
The redhaired boy
Who did not turn out to be prettty
Enough to pass as a girl
Nor was she going back
To that working ranch in the mountains
Every year Peter B would visit
The ski sloped around the same area
And an old man would watch him
Perhaps believing he was his son
Maybe just taking care of his ward
They had lots of money given to them
They did not need our money
But they wanted it as well
Steve whom she married in a outdoor
Seventies wedding with the locals
Never being provided the truth
About the French speaking nanny type
But one day when I go caught
Being blue it was presumed
I needed to be taught a lesson
By my mother who only
Encountered women who kept
After her for having a family
Who could travel to Europe
This because they had relatives
And that is where the banks
Were located as well
The would have their fruit and nuts
Grown on their own place
Delivered then receive their dues
In a timely fashion over there
Meanwhile, my sister had died
And I was in shock most of the time
I was still small enough for it to matter
Also that horrible boy Shawn
Had shown up instead of the boys
Who were hiding out with grandpa
There it sat the red tricycle
The boys were the owners of it
But no it had to go to the horrible
Red hair boy who was
Now living down the street
With his younger blond brother
And a happy couple
He screamed at me
When we arrived and my father
Took the bike out of his truck
I preferred the truck to the car
As it meant Jimmy would not come
Til he found out about it
Then we could not keep him out of it
That day he was missing
But down the street she came
Running with a baby stroller
He had gone to her to find
A way to have his way with this family
"his family" he called us but we were not
She also had a little girl
How fair is it to be faced
With a small female child
I was trying to show the thing
How to ride the bike
But he screamed at me again
He did not want my help
Nor want me near him
I put one foot down on the too small
Tricycle and did a loop in front of the house
The men laughed
She is showing you how to do it
He kept trying to repeat
The foot technique but was too small
Younger than me by more than a few years
She showed up and bent down to him
He had to have her explain everything
Than she saw his bike came with
Long pink strands like they used to have
On the bikes in those days
Trailers that flowed past the rider
As they picked up speed
I had seen them but had not gotten
To removing them yet waiting
For my fathers permission
They were hers of course
She loved pick and I would not have
Been allowed to have the bike
Although I do remember a red fire engine
I used to peddle Flintstone style
Anyway, they were shocked
We were attempting to make fun of him
She tore them off and threw them in the trash
It was a bad scene for all of us
Finally, it was agreed upon
That he could keep the bike
And I was invited to a birthday party
The little bastard had a birthday
Coming up in June
That is when I found out
We went to the same school
My mother had moved me back to the first grade
I kept pasing the exams but she would not hear
Of it at all that I was going to move ahead
My sister had been kept at home
She had not learned to read
Til that last year when were going to school
Together where I was reading since i was at least three
She had to start over in the first grade
While i went to special courses
To come back and wait for her
To learn to read instead she cried
Almost all day long
Everyone was trying to get her
Past that stage where she could
Keep up with the rest of us
My mother had breakdown
She could not tell us apart
Then she could not get over her death
Than she would not let me be me
But instead I had to be her for her
Now i had a new problems
While I was waiting for someone
To release me from the first grade
For the rest of my life
I ran into it on the playground
Someone had said I had a boyfriend
In the first grade that was the end!
There he was in an enclosure
Like a dog not allowed to leave
He kept throwing his ball
Over the side making me run for it
Until I got tired of the joke.
That is when she showed up
With her little girl at school
She was insane enough
To go around to all the school officials
About how I had left the baby crying
On a bench that she had to rescue it
It was my baby and I was not even tall enough
To get on the ferries wheel yet
But some women are stupid
She wanted child support for the girl
Then she wantead food stamps
And a new house
And trips to the east coast
And, well the list went on
They also showed up in the same town
When I was dragged back
From Paris where I was going
To college, instead I had to repeat
Highschool over and over again
For the sake of my mother mind
One day she would do one thng
And another day something else
This time she had told me I could
Play the violin again
It was okay, really it was
I had played since i was two
Got invited to Juilliard
Only to have it cause problems
For someone else
Jimmy got hold of the instrument
Insisted on going on stage himself
Then just sat there holding it in his lap
Not knowing how to play
Just not wanting me to play
So, I was not allowed to play
This time she said I could
We had found the old thing
It sounded great and I was beginning
To breathe again then it happened
Jimmy came to town
He was not supposed to come near us again
But there he was smiling and jerking his head
In that stupid fashion of his
He wanted to live with us
But the law would not allow him
Near me while I was in my adolescent
He could not handle blood
From women during the moth
His own mother could not
Bleed around him nor was
Anyone supposed to get pregnant
Around him either.
There he was and I had called
Grandpa to come and see her
They showed up to escort me
To the little school concert
Steve was a juvenile convict
He did not tell you that
But he was really strict
He decided I was not to play
In any shcool things
Which made my mothers uncle mad
When i went to visit him at headquarters
Peter B made the mistake
Of suddenly being insterested in me
And smiling he took the violin
Out of my hands for him to carry
I knew trouble right there and then
I made it clear to my relatives
He was not my boyfriend
His family were the ones who caused
Trouble and then that birthday party
The sister-in-law showed up with a new infant
Which she said she took out of the garbage can
Where she found it and I had thrwon it away
We had all heard her in labor yelling
It was hers no doubt about it
But extortioners are never convinced
They will not be believed.
They had been sent away
Idaho had seemed right for these people
They were back and had found the one guy
In all of Idaho who was related to us.
Grandma showed up and took care of things
Then she disappeared
Back to Los angles
Where they wanted her to get
Them involved with the shows
Eventually they all had a chance to work
Backstage as Hollywood workers
Even Brent popped his ugly head up
In fact, the two boys became best friends
Brent had already done a lot of bad things
With that dead body in the trunk story
But here we all were in the same place
And they decided they wanted to go
To church with us as well
We lost our car first
It was stolen by their friend
Then they could control when
And where we went
Then they kept telling people
That I was Peters girlfriend
We had a number of arguments
Then they hired this weird woman
Who was already eighteen
And an adult to show at school
Harassing me about being her girlfriend
I went to court, moved, woke up in hospitals
Or worse sometimes while I went to work
For the federal government
That did a lot of good
Greedy people who cant stand
Seeing someone else getting anything at all
National Park guide
Forestry fire fighter
Not east jobs but they wanted them
Then was the day I overheard them talking?
By tis time my grandmother was dead
They were talking to about the end of the world
My mother could not handle things
Teeling her she might have to surviv
By eating the left overs
The Donner party and cannibalism
Where in the news at the time
As was the talk of Armegeddon
And Nuclear holocaust
She was being told she might have to
I heard him clearly say it outloud
Camille must taste good!
Peter was discussing the idea
That if thre was a time
Others were giving themselves permission
To eat those of us who were not going to live
It was already determined I would not be alive
He had already eaten through my grandparents larder
While his mother kept after me for food stamps
I took her to the food banks since she had a large family
But that was not the problem
He simply did not like me
I did not even eat pizza but salads.
I was a natural food freak
I had allergies that sent me to the emergency room
What did he know about it anyways?
Idaho must serve roadkill.
Of both the varmints and humankind
I was not surprised
As I said he was not my boyfriend
But was influencing my mother in a bad way
Then the woman who was now 25
Walked into a classroom.
Sat down and started talking about one of those books
None of these people understood literature.
Not Shakespeare nor the bible
She announced that my left ass was hers
She meant it that she was going to eat it!
The school official's had been warned
But no one really paid attention to anything.
Jimmy had developed a hate group, again.
Brent went around bragging,
Charbroiled was a word
I heard a lot as a young person
Barbeques were always a challenge
With the smirking girls and rude boys
Preselected as their sacrifice.
The day I found out
That my families religion
Was not going to do anything
About the ones who came inside
Took up precious seats
Wasted everyone's time
Embellzelled from everyone
Because they could not do anything.
It would all work out in the end.
Somedays there is nothing to do.
Other days it is time to stand up
And run as far as one can.
But then they just show up anyways.
I survived the Pandemic on my own.
Only to find them sniffing around me again.
Jimmy did tell me from his mouth
He plans to eat me!
Everyone laughed at him.
They did not believe him.
I never intended to marry Peter B.
But he always intended to make me his victim.
How many times did I hear his father
Talk about a human sacrifice!
It is not supposed to be literal
But then some people never get
To join a group that they cant live with nor without.
Myself, I expect to be an escape artist, the rest of my long life.
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